“There are others who have suffered more, but I will talk about them below. How did I hold on? Mainly, that I was right. Yes, my life turned dark. Not only five thousand people were killed. We are also killed who took our souls chika-chika. How heavy and difficult was the process of disappointment for me…! Communism was the whole meaning of my life, an illusion, an extraordinary dream. Extreme indoctrination had turned us into fanatics.”