Sade Andria Zabala

“God is such a cruel godfor making you so wonderful,and for making me so weak.”

“Tell me every terrible thing you ever did, and let me love you anyway.”

“I envythe cup of coffeethat getsto kissyour sleepy lipsawakeevery cold andbitter morning.”

“You wanted to see the world. And yet, all I want is to see you.”

“I used to arch my back for boys who couldn’t even remember the color of my bedsheets.But you, however, made me turnover the arch on my mouth.”

“The thought of youbeing with someone else isliterally killing me.And you couldn’t care less. BecauseI am just one of the writhing bodiesthat ruined your bed sheets.”

“I am the girlyou fool around with,before you meetthe love of your life.”

“Do not settle for people who do not appreciate you, who do not know how lucky they are. Remember it is a privilege to be loved by you or even just to be touched by you. And the warmth of another body does not define your worth.”

“And the next time I reach for my pen,it won’t be to write about you again.The sun will feel warm on my skin once more,and I will get drunk on the colors of the skyinstead of tasting hangovers dripping from strangers’ lips.”

“To me you were home, to you I was just a vacation.”

“I said I love youwhen what I meant to say was"I’m afraid of being alone."I said I need youwhen what I meant to say was"I need to learn how to love myself.”

“I am starting to acceptthat you never loved me.And it's sadbecause I don't think you seehow beautiful you are to me.Your face was the lightthat chased away the shadows,every nightmare, every fear.But you burned out and nowI'm learning to be afraidof the dark once again.”

“I ache for you.”