Alfa H

“And I find myself asking again and again.... What was it about such a beautiful man, who was able to leave such ugly scars?”

“...and he will never grasp that what he calls 'bitching' is merely my heart talking out loud.”

“Heartache wasn't my intention... love was.”

“There is lonely, and there is alone time. I have found that both have etched character upon my soul.”

“Trying to explain feelings that are foreign to your heart, make communication daunting, even frightful. How does one express sensations that cower in the corners, fearful they will not be accepted by their inspiration?”

“What is it about those unresolved endings that cause you to question every decision when you're trying to move forward?”

“You are not disposable. I know you feel that way when people choose to walk out of your life, but their emptiness causes space. And that vacant area of your life is desperately crying out for the one meant to take up residence. Let the angry tenant go. You don't want someone staying because you've begged and pleaded for their occupancy. You want the one who sees your quaking heart and says: "Honey I'm home".”

“I loved him... much more than I liked him. And therein was the beginning of the end.”

“I'm not afraid of anything anymore. I've found out Ghosts don't hide under my bed or in my closets either. They exist in plain sight - everyday; Conjured up by 'our song' playing on the radio. By the mailman's blue eyes that are so like yours I could get utterly lost in them. They come as raindrops, kissing my skin... the way you used to. Ghosts are everywhere.”

“Keep yourself as busy as you can. Try and forget. But even with 7 billion other distractions... you don't forget me.”

“Like yourself, just as you are. Don't look at people and measure your self love by what they project in order to make themselves happy. Take a long look. You don't want their lives anyway. You don't like anything they do, say, or portray. Why then have you been so hard on yourself? You don't deserve to be treated that way.”

“He kissed her good morning like she was the reason sun decided to shine.”

“I wanted it to be you. I wanted your eyes to be locked with mine during every fear and tear experienced throughout my lifetime.”

“How long will you fake at living life? What will it take for you to see the beauty you've neglected while wearing the dirty lies expected of you?”

“She knows he's not the same. He's different now. The eyes that once held too much contain nothing at all. He is colorless. Faded like sun-drenched wallpaper. The man that stands before her has no answers to her questions, and no ointment for her fears.”

“You think it's time for a new beginning. You long to start from scratch, so you seek new things - trying like hell to reinvent yourself. Out with the old and in with the world's new. But you'll never create a version of yourself that is as magical and unique as the original. So... just be you.”

“Our spirits are connected honey. Wrapped in firsts of gnarled heartache. But I promise not to let go if you don't.”

“They beg you for transparency. Yet when you give them a peek behind the curtain shrouding your hear, they run in sheer fright.”

“I am deep. therefore you can't wade in the kiddie pool and expect to find me." - Alfa"And I've never wanted to drown until now." - JmStorm”

“Having to explain to someone how they hurt you, always feels like an ass kicking... again.”